There are three weeks left of school. Only three. There are so many scary implications that come along with that: finding out what to schedule for classes for next year (because I still have no idea what to do with my life!!), finances, Mexico, etc.
MEXICO! I will be leaving in about 21 days. There is no thought more scary than that. It is exhilarating and yet deathly terrifying. I know I must put my entire reliance, trust, and security into God and yet I am still not doing this. It is a battle between the flesh and the spirit as I want with all of my might to go home for the summer, but knowing that this is where God wants me. This is the Plan that He has made for me. That this is the first time I have ever fully understood what it meant to listen to the Holy Spirit. To know that He is saying "Tylyn, you need to go. You need to make sacrifices. You need to change your life. You need to rely on Me." God is commanding me to follow through with The Great Commisson (Matthew 28:19).
Well God, I am ready for you to rock my world. I am ready for you to take away the things of the world that I am so absorbed in (social media, clothes, food, people, and most of all: ME). Break my heart for what breaks Yours.
Compassion. That is a gift that I have recently noticed that you have given to me. My heart breaks when anothers is breaking. My heart breaks for this world, and yet I do nothing about it. God I want you to take control, but waiting will do nothing. Taking that step of faith is exactly how I am going to accomplish Your Mission. My first step sits right here: Mexico.
When I followed through with this first step, I became overwhelmed. I had no idea what was going to happen. I had all trust in the Lord. Now a couple weeks later, I'm finding myself more excited for it! So completely excited to see how God is going to use me in the lives of others. But what about that middle part? Oh, yes, that part. As I drifted away from the glory of God being proclaimed and focused on myself, I became incredibly bitter about going down to Mexico. I felt inadequate, fearful, stuck in the past, and unwilling. God can't use that! How am I supposed to be used by God if I am unwilling and unteachable? Man can I be stubborn and full of pride. I spent the whole week in pity and self doubt. Not really even reaching out for help. Idiot. Foolishness is what it is called in the Bible. We are foolish to not trust in the Lord and to attempt to put all control in our own hands.
I think my favorite thing that I took from spring break this year (5 weeks ago, wow) was that God will mold us into the person that He needs us to be for His Mission. We are to either act upon our missions, or we are to sit and wait as He prepares us. But the part I have been missing out on is the action. I have waited and God has transformed me. He has molded me and He will continue to mold me until I leave for Mexico and even while I am there. But I must be willing to adjust immediately. When God calls, we respond. We do not wait. We take action. I will take action when God calls me into His Mission, and here I go. 21 days. Three weeks. Mexico. God is going to rock my world!
Are you ready for your world to be rocked?
